I can't really write about it

it's too early or too late I'm not sure which one or if they're the same... every word I think of that explains it is too giving away and will show my insides backwards and twisted mess that they aare. it's an uncontrollable rush of moments in my head though and even if I can't tell it in a lyrical line of prose it is making my disposition flutter and yearn for shhhhhhhhhh