sick

i'm a dizzying dripping mess i'm melting to the floor feeling nauseated and lost reaching out to people passing by they don't even see me they purposely avert their eyes. it comes up again i vomit bile and blood all over the cement and my shoes a man in a suit jumps back in disgust and then continues quickly on his way there's black ooze dripping from my lips and the world around me blurs as i try to make my way down the street groping trash cans and feeling up phone booths i get a few more blocks before i feel my knees buckle the world rushes away from me through a tunnel like a ride i went on at that park.. and then its black.

heat on my back. fingers hands everywhere i can't tell if they are helping or hurting it's a feeling somewhere in between like